Hello on this sunny Monday here in western Missouri. The
sun’s warmth belies the air’s chill, and I may get out for my first walk in
over two months. Let’s hope!
Meanwhile, today I want to write a “scone”—my last
posting explained that if you are new here—about why I’m going to continue to
write yeast bread and cookies. That is, I’ll write them with a new recipe that
will reflect my having less energy now that I’m aging.
I also now have less time to devote to book-publication
writing for two reasons:
1) I’ve
decided to post and read blogs each week as well as write pancakes—a 250-word
pet article and the advice column for the Idaho newspaper I told you about last
week.
And
. . .
2) Dr.
Ann, the glaucoma specialist, has advised me to sit at the computer to write
for only 25-minute sessions, followed by 10 minute intervals of resting my
eyes with an eye mask on. I try then to clear my mind
and embrace what is. What I mean by that, is that I want to embrace my life as
it is right now. I want to avoid dwelling in the past and what was and has
been; I want to live in the present and find the good it offers me. One good is
a new recipe for writing.
That new recipes consists not only in writing baked good—yeast
bread, cookies, scone, and pancakes. But also in being more flexible about my
writing. That is, not setting a schedule and assigning myself deadlines that
often, in the past, have been unrealistic. I’m going to simply write until I’m
done. I’ll write for as many days, weeks, months a manuscript needs as it goes
through its various drafts.
Then and only then will I announce the publication of
the book.
In other words, my new recipe calls for a new baker—one who
is gracious to herself and one who stops being her own taskmaster. That’s a
recipe for success. The way I’ve been operating in the past two years has
become a recipe for burn-out. You and I both know that.
I want to continue baking yeast bread (novels and
memoirs) and cookies (gift books for cat lovers) because I already have so many
manuscripts done in first draft. They represent writing I’ve done for the last
twenty years—writing for which I couldn’t find an agent or publisher.
Here’s what I have ready to work on in the time I have
left to write:
Novels/Yeast
Bread:
The Reluctant
Spy: I need to write three scenes to add to the final draft of
this historical novel on which I’ve worked for twenty years.
Three Roads
Diverged: Draft 1 of this Bronze-Age Greece historical novel is completed.
Winter
Tapestry: Draft 1 of this novel about four ex-nuns in the 20th
century is completed.
Ceaseless
Chatter: Half of Draft 1 about the years 1967-1977 is completed.
Abandonment:
Half of Draft 1 about the years 1936-1958 is completed.
Cat
Books/Cookies
Bastet-Net #2—Saints:
Half of Draft 1 completed.
Bastet-Net #3—Prayers:
More than half of Draft 1 completed.
Cats Speak Out: Final Draft completed; tweaking needed.
Cats Speak Out: Final Draft completed; tweaking needed.
Having done work on these manuscripts, I’d like to see
them through to publication. That may or may not happen, but I would enjoy
discovering their final drafts!
Peace.
I want to read about the four ex-nuns! I know it's not done yet, but can you give us a preview? :)
ReplyDeleteDear Sandi, I finished the first draft in about 1994. It predated the scandal that has since haunted the Roman Catholic Church. That's the preview!!!!! Peace.
DeleteThanks for the preview!
DeleteDee, I thought of you today. I met a nun at our church. It was a Celebration of Life service for one of our members who passed recently and she knew her. I don't know why I am telling you this, but I saw her and said hello and offered to help her find the other friends she was looking for and all the while I was thinking of you.
Dear Sandi, I so admire the nuns who became my friends in the convent and looked at their lives and considered their vows and stayed. All of us, I think, had to consider what a vocation was and if it changed as time passed and if it was for a time or for a life.
DeleteThanks for thinking of me. I hope your thoughts were soft ones. Peace.
Yes, they were good thoughts. :)
DeleteDear Sandi, thank you! Peace.
DeleteIt does not sound like you are cutting down, Dee; you are just classifying them into different groups.
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DeleteDear Arleen, yes, I think you are right about a new classification. but the thing is that I haven't shared the full recipe yet! Next week I'll share with you what my routine/schedule/recipe has been since I retired back in 2001. So for 18 years I've not cut down. I really do plan to do so now and I'll share in my next posting how. Maybe I'll need to post a couple of weeks about this! Peace.
As friends would say to me, Sounds Like a Plan! Go for it, mightily, and enjoy.
ReplyDeleteDear Joanne, I'm go to enjoy what my body feels like doing for as long as it lets me know! Peace.
DeleteWhen I read your words, "...I want to embrace my life as it is right now. I want to avoid dwelling in the past and what was and has been; I want to live in the present and find the good it offers me..." I thought, Boy is that's mindset I need to adapt in my life. I wish you the best of luck in your new "baking" plans. I look forward to "tasting" in whatever you share here.
ReplyDeleteDear Jean, it's taken me years to get to where I am relishing the living in the present. Letting go isn't easy for any of us I've concluded. There's so many ways of letting go and so many things are part of who we have been--memories a good part of that. I have such memories of how my body used to "serve" me. Now I must let go of those memories and discover what my body is doing for me now. I find this hard work. Peace.
DeleteI think I've read everything you have published and hope you will continue to announce when there are new goodies coming out of the oven. I think you will need to take care of your eyes; they are an essential ingredient in the baking. Thank you for letting me know where you are these days. You feel like an old friend, dear Dee. :-)
ReplyDeleteDear DJan, I will let everyone know about new goodies being published! The thing I won't do is weeks ahead of time announce a month or a date. Instead, when all is ready, and my niece has done her wonderful work with Createspace and Kindle and gives me the "go-ahead," I'll post about the book and say it's available.
DeleteI've been demanding from myself--unbeknownst to you and others who read this blog--that I publish in a certain month, and certain date. No more of that!
And DJan, you feel like an old friend to me also. I've met so many thoughtful and generous and support friends through blogging. A great gift that came to me in my mid-70s. Peace.
It must be difficult at times when your eyes let you down and you are unable to do as much as you would like. I guess all you can do is take it one day at a time
ReplyDeleteDear Jo-Anne, that's exactly what I'm trying to do: live one day at a time. It's taken me decades to embrace that philosophy. Peace.
DeleteWe should all learn to be nicer to ourselves Dee.
ReplyDeleteDear Annie, so often we are much nicer to others than to ourselves. As I said to Jo-Anne in the comment above, it's taken me decades to learn the lessons that are accompanying me into aging. Peace.
DeleteThat is cutting down?? Mercy, you have a full plate of bakery goods needing attention. I am overwhelmed just reading about it. Can't wait to read your pet article. Good luck with your new, pared down schedule.
ReplyDeleteHope you get that walk in.
Dear Patti, next posting I hope to explain just how this is cutting down. I think I've been pretty obsessive/compulsive about schedules and routines in the last thirty years. Now, I'm going to let go. I'll post about that.
DeleteI didn't get the walk in. The wind chill was 9 degrees F. The wind was quite strong and with my balance impaired by vision and Meniere's, I thought I'd best not chance it. Peace.
There seems to be much a-baking in your writing oven! Living in the now is hard for me, a bit, too. I find myself tripping over the 'what ifs' from time to time and find it limiting.
ReplyDeleteDear Bea, the "what if" road show can be a hoot if we visualize ourselves in a Key Stone Cops situation, but perhaps melancholy if there's a lot in our lives that has seemed hard and unrewarding. A few times in my life, I've thought "what if" but most of the time I've been given the grace to be grateful for what has been. And for that, too, I'm grateful. Peace as you journey.
DeleteYes, be gentle with yourself! The chapters are going no where, but keep plugging away.
ReplyDeleteDear Susan, for yeas I was the hare, bounding down the road of my career. Now I'm the tortoise who is smelling the roses on the way to the finish line! Peace.
DeleteGreetings.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
Dear Victor, thanks for stopping by. I so enjoyed your witticism on another blog's comment! Peace.
DeleteThe computer is hard on the eyes, but it's easier said than done to stay away. I have cataracts. Not bad enough for surgery yet, but they do bother me after a lot of computer use.
ReplyDeleteThank you for stopping by and reading this posting. I so agree with you that it's hard to stay away from the computer. I'm able to do it only because the doctor has pretty much given me a "prescription" for caring for my glaucoma eyes. Moreover, my niece gave me a Google Mini for christmas and I simply say, "Ok, Google, set an alarm for 25 minutes." When that goes off, I say, "Ok, Google, please see an alarm for 10 minutes." I get up and walk around to stretch my back and then come back and close my eyes and meditate on the day. It's all good! Peace.
DeleteI am in awe of your wonderful being dearest Dee!
ReplyDeleteyour energies stunned me always ,i really wish i can be like this :)
how wise of you to classify your work to make it better and flawless without being much exhausted
i am happy you sort out about focusing your energies in less tiring and healthy way
my heartiest best wishes are with you my precious friend!
you are such an inspiration :)
Dear Baili, the analogy of the baking works for me because I so enjoy carbohydrates! I'd like to finish all those drafts I mentioned and publish them, but only time and my energy level will reveal what's going to happen. Peace.
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